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leo "i'm not a cat" tsukinaga ([personal profile] espansivo) wrote2018-03-25 04:25 pm
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stressweets: We've learned that friendship isn't always easy. But there's no doubt it's worth fighting for. (057. the return of harmony)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-12 04:39 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ...niisan's so brave. so unbearably brave. he always has been, and tsukasa hums softly, wiggling his fingers until he can lace them between his older brother's. ]

You should at least be able to talk to Baba alone for a little while before they come back, so there's that...

[ he doesn't know how things will go; leo suzakura is a banned topic in their household, and has been since he asked too many questions when he was twelve, thirteen. he leans his head on his brother's shoulder, weary. ]

...I'll leave you two alone, [ mumbled ] and keep an eye out for Mom and Dad, so you can at least have a little warning. Is that okay?
stressweets: This week my very talented friend Rarity learned that if you try to please everypony, you oftentimes end up pleasing nopony, especially yourself. And I learned this: [...] In other words, you shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth. (008. suited for success)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-12 05:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Me too. Baba seems like she'd just close her eyes after recounting another story and simply smile her way to Heaven.

[ how unbearable, though, to think of it; his voice wavers a little, and he squints to keep from tearing up any more than he already has. stop, stop: you're not a child anymore, tsukasa. you're almost an adult. act like it.

words he tells himself, his eighteenth birthday still far off (and twentieth farther still), but still wanting to seem more mature, more adult for those he wants to appear good in front of. ]


Fufu, I wonder if she'd rather go out with a bang too... Like saving the world, or something. [ a small smile, sad. weak. forced. ] Or maybe traveling back to the moon, like Kaguya-hime. Something lovely.
stressweets: Sometimes it can be hard for a shy pony like me to stand up for myself. When I first tried it, I didn't like the pony I became, but I learned that standing up for yourself isn't the same as changing who you are. (015. putting your hoof down)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-13 11:34 pm (UTC)(link)
[ ...mm. no, he can't, and he shakes his head. ]

She's not gone yet, Leonii. [ she's still here, still here. he slows when they reach the top, staring past the shrine to the house he'd just left. he switches to japanese, less out of habit and more because it's— easier, it's easier, to talk like this. ] Until she passes on, I don't want to... I want Baba's last memory of me to be one where I'm smiling, because I'm happy she lived.
stressweets: We've learned that friendship isn't always easy. But there's no doubt it's worth fighting for. (057. the return of harmony)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-14 12:12 am (UTC)(link)
[ ah, ahhh, leo... he returns the hug, turns his face into his shoulder for a second before he nods and steps away. to pull him along, wiping at his eyes with his free hand. ]

Of course~. Fufu, she'll be crying too, for the same reason... [ maybe their parents will too, and it won't be as much of a shitshow as he's imagining.

the house remains unchanged from the last time leo was in; baba is in her room, of course, and tsukasa hesitates at the door of it. he glances at his brother, flexing his fingers. ]
...Do you want to knock, or should I?

[ stalling for the time baba really doesn't have left, that they don't have before their parents come back. ]
stressweets: Sometimes it can be hard for a shy pony like me to stand up for myself. When I first tried it, I didn't like the pony I became, but I learned that standing up for yourself isn't the same as changing who you are. (015. putting your hoof down)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-17 03:16 pm (UTC)(link)
[ tsukasa leans against him reassuringly when baba looks up sharply; there's a moment, and she smiles wide despite the tears edging her eyes.

welcome home, Leo.

...he should leave them alone, like he said, but he curls his fingers into leo's shirt and closes his eyes. when leo moves to join baba on the bed, as she asks him to, patting the spot beside her, he'll move, but for now it's

it's so nice, to be with them again. them three. his heart aches for the kitchen, but this is fine, too. ]
Edited 2018-08-17 15:16 (UTC)
stressweets: The Starlight I love is passionate, lively, and yeah, sometimes angry. Those are my favorite parts of you. That, and the fact that you forgive me every time. (071. all bottled up)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-17 04:00 pm (UTC)(link)
[ tsukasa doesn't follow, though he lingers at the door for a moment later before he steps out and slides it mostly closed—there's a little bit open so he can hear leo if he calls for him, but for the moment, he leaves to fix up some tea.

baba's favorite, like old times. for her part, the old woman pulls him close immediately, pressing her face into his hair with a sigh—and then come the questions, spirited despite her obvious fatigue. her first grandson has returned to her after all; she can spare a bit of life, a bit of energy, for this, for finding out just how he's been. it's much better to hear it in person, right beside her, honestly, and she strokes her fingers through his hair comfortingly as she divulges how things have been at home too, whatever tsukasa hasn't told him... primarily about her daughter and the man she married, their parents.

(tsukasa does his best not to bring mom and dad into the equation with leo, unless he's specifically asked about them, after all.) ]
stressweets: Just when I learned how wonderful it is to have friends, I have to leave them. (001. friendship is magic)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-17 05:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ she doesn't fault him—it isn't as if she was perfectly behaved in her youth either, and she laughs softly recounting it. it might be more difficult to return, she continues even softer, but she believes there might a chance for him, if he really wants to.

his parents miss him too, even if they don't say so, even if they don't show it. she's sure they have to—he's their firstborn, after all. the one they loved enough to bring into this world, to take care of, to worry over and get mad at. she shifts topics though, just to ask him more about these people who's captured his heart so—and at some point during sena's, mention that she's met him before, when tsukasa brought him over last month. a respectful boy, very easy on the eyes. her darling grandson has good taste as ever. ]
stressweets: Sometimes it can be hard for a shy pony like me to stand up for myself. When I first tried it, I didn't like the pony I became, but I learned that standing up for yourself isn't the same as changing who you are. (015. putting your hoof down)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-26 02:56 am (UTC)(link)
[ baba gives a very soft Hummmmmmm, teasing him about his taste—always on the lighter side of things, aren't they? maybe that's natural when it comes to people with dark hair, or maybe it's just the times... tsukasa, if she recalls, also likes (liked?) some fairly light-haired people. he's showed her on his phone, pictures of his friends, how fondly he talks of them...

she laughs again, closing her eyes, then quietly asks leo to look after him, now that he's home. to talk to their parents, too... at least try. she'd like things to be at peace again... she'd like to see his photos on the wall again. that's a little selfish to request, she knows, but it's an old woman's sentimental last wish. ]
stressweets: This week my very talented friend Rarity learned that if you try to please everypony, you oftentimes end up pleasing nopony, especially yourself. And I learned this: [...] In other words, you shouldn't look a gift horse in the mouth. (008. suited for success)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-26 03:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ she strokes his hair, comforting. this is a two way street, she knows; those two have to be willing to accept their first son as he is, as he's become. he's turned out to be such a wonderful adult, after all. this she means, giving him a squeeze.

after a long moment, she starts to sing; it's a song they used to sing together, an old love song she used to dance to, voice sweet but weaker than it used to be when he was younger. age hasn't taken her spirit, her love of this art and many others, but it has hampered it, somewhat. ]
stressweets: The Starlight I love is passionate, lively, and yeah, sometimes angry. Those are my favorite parts of you. That, and the fact that you forgive me every time. (071. all bottled up)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-26 03:33 am (UTC)(link)
[ he, unfortunately, has been; wrapped up in talking to them, welcoming them home, hesitating at... at their questioning of why he has three teas on his tray. if he has a friend or two over, and why he didn't ask them first, and if it was really okay to have them over when such important matters were being discussed—

he bows his head and apologizes, stepping away. he'll fetch them right now; they're with baba, who was also going to be a recipient of this tea, so...

tsukasa knocks gently before he enters, smiling slightly at the song, at their voices mingling so wonderfully together... he shuts the door part ways behind him like before, setting the tray down at her bedside. ]


Sorry to interrupt. [ his voice is quiet, heavy. ] Baba, here's your tea. You too, Leonii. But...

[ he hesitates, chewing his bottom lip, and leans closer to leo. in english, now: ] Mom and Dad are back. They want to see what friend I brought over without their permission.
stressweets: We've learned that friendship isn't always easy. But there's no doubt it's worth fighting for. (057. the return of harmony)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-26 04:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ baba sips her tea, giving them both a curious look, and tsukasa glances at her before he closes his eyes.

he wants to be there for leo, but he'd like to be here for baba, to make sure she isn't upset or agitated by the....... discussion there's sure to be... he's obviously torn, squeezing his cup tightly, before he slowly shakes his head and sets it back down. ]


I'll come with you. I'm niisan's ally, after all. [ he reaches for leo's hand, hesitates, and grips the hem of his shirt instead, like a child. ] If it gets too much, I'll come back to make sure Baba's not wound up or anything, but I want to be there for you, Leonii. I wish I'd been able to be back before you left.

[ but he was a stupid, stupid child, who didn't understand anything at all, so... ]
stressweets: Bein' honest sure gets hard when it seems like the truth might hurt somepony you care about. But I think believin' a lie can end up hurtin' them even more. Maybe some ponies don't care about that – but I sure ain't one of them. (018. leap of faith)

[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-26 04:51 am (UTC)(link)
[ good luck, dear, baba replies, voice tinged with the hope that it will go well, that things will work out anyway, even despite how things are... stay optimistic.

tsukasa turns his face away, when leo takes his hands, when baba sips her tea and sets it in her lap. ah, it's terrifying, now. he'll have leo, of course, but their parents are already stressed and upset about the state of baba, and then obon's freshly done, but there's still more things to do, and...

he leads his older brother out of the room, shutting the door behind them. his tea's going to grow cold in there, but it's fine. he takes a deep breath, glancing at leo. ]


...Are you ready, Leonii?
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[personal profile] stressweets 2018-08-26 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ that's true, and tsukasa leans against him as they walk; he counts their steps, familiar with how long it takes to get to the front room, and pauses again at the door. exhales softly, shaking slightly, as he slides open the door.

the little talk that had populated the room stops immediately at the sight of leo, and tsukasa shrinks against him slightly. ]


...Leonii was around and wanted to pay his respects to Baba before she passed, [ he mumbles, not even sure if they heard him; they're more focused on his older brother, and as always, their expressions are a little hard to read.

instead of replying to tsukasa, their mother simply asks leo what he's doing here— it isn't like they didn't hear, but it's like, they want to hear him say it, sort of feeling. ]

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