[ tsukasa doesn't follow, though he lingers at the door for a moment later before he steps out and slides it mostly closed—there's a little bit open so he can hear leo if he calls for him, but for the moment, he leaves to fix up some tea.
baba's favorite, like old times. for her part, the old woman pulls him close immediately, pressing her face into his hair with a sigh—and then come the questions, spirited despite her obvious fatigue. her first grandson has returned to her after all; she can spare a bit of life, a bit of energy, for this, for finding out just how he's been. it's much better to hear it in person, right beside her, honestly, and she strokes her fingers through his hair comfortingly as she divulges how things have been at home too, whatever tsukasa hasn't told him... primarily about her daughter and the man she married, their parents.
(tsukasa does his best not to bring mom and dad into the equation with leo, unless he's specifically asked about them, after all.) ]
[of course he wants to know about his parents. of course, it isn't like he hates them; he couldn't, they had only wanted the best for him, it just... wasn't what was right for him, for what he wanted to do, what he felt. he'll listen to all she has to offer, returning with the things he hadn't put in paper -- his first love and heartbreak, the... odd thing he's at now, with his heart pulled in so many different ways (nazu, gentle and warm, who loves him without condition; miai, whose love is genuine if stuttering at times, wanting to change and meet him across the river; ... mitzy, a stern young man with a hardworking heart, who is connected to him in a way he can't quite explain, that he wants to be spoiled by).
how he was now, the sort of work he likes and the people he knows, the music he plays and loves... leo still remembers how she taught him to tell stories best, and how they charm people even now, draw others close and give them daydreams. he misses it, honestly, but... he doesn't know if he's allowed back, if he could even consider it, given how he'd left.
(leo apologies for that too, voice growing quieter, for running away and all. how he'd been a coward, unable to be the older brother tsukasa needed and the son they'd wanted. he's been trying to be at least one of those now.)]
[ she doesn't fault him—it isn't as if she was perfectly behaved in her youth either, and she laughs softly recounting it. it might be more difficult to return, she continues even softer, but she believes there might a chance for him, if he really wants to.
his parents miss him too, even if they don't say so, even if they don't show it. she's sure they have to—he's their firstborn, after all. the one they loved enough to bring into this world, to take care of, to worry over and get mad at. she shifts topics though, just to ask him more about these people who's captured his heart so—and at some point during sena's, mention that she's met him before, when tsukasa brought him over last month. a respectful boy, very easy on the eyes. her darling grandson has good taste as ever. ]
[leo doesn't say anything to the parents bit, curling his hand against her blankets thoughtfully, and perks up to talk all about them. he clearly enjoys talking about nazu especially, bright and warm, but miai's is coated in fondness and wistfulness; sena's is similar to both, bright and longing, and he listens to her thoughts on the only one she'd met.
of course he has taste. ♪ he doesn't mind showing pictures of the others, dates with nazu (and some of nazu's Large Family -- he's the eldest son among all these siblings, he takes care of them all and leo helps), older pictures of miai back in japan... they're all lookers.
and, like. light haired. miai was blond back then, even if he'd had dark hair when they reunited. there's some pictures of that too, with leo having more piercings than the japan-based ones. leo would've invited both of them over to meet her if things weren't what they were, but he's glad she got to meet sena at least. he's a good guy, even if he takes some time to warm up to others ♥]
[ baba gives a very soft Hummmmmmm, teasing him about his taste—always on the lighter side of things, aren't they? maybe that's natural when it comes to people with dark hair, or maybe it's just the times... tsukasa, if she recalls, also likes (liked?) some fairly light-haired people. he's showed her on his phone, pictures of his friends, how fondly he talks of them...
she laughs again, closing her eyes, then quietly asks leo to look after him, now that he's home. to talk to their parents, too... at least try. she'd like things to be at peace again... she'd like to see his photos on the wall again. that's a little selfish to request, she knows, but it's an old woman's sentimental last wish. ]
the part he knew'd come up, and he's quiet as he buries his face more into her. baba... probably won't be alive to see if they ever are put up again, but every year she'd come to visit for a night, then leave relieved to know things were good. if they ever would.
okay, he finally says. i'll try, baba. i can try.
because he can't make promises he can't keep anymore, but he can say he'll try. he'd been meaning to talk to them today anyway. while he was around.]
[ she strokes his hair, comforting. this is a two way street, she knows; those two have to be willing to accept their first son as he is, as he's become. he's turned out to be such a wonderful adult, after all. this she means, giving him a squeeze.
after a long moment, she starts to sing; it's a song they used to sing together, an old love song she used to dance to, voice sweet but weaker than it used to be when he was younger. age hasn't taken her spirit, her love of this art and many others, but it has hampered it, somewhat. ]
[he almost protests that, that he hasn't become anything like that, but he's stopped at her song; gently, gently, it wraps around him and he breathes a little easier, the lump giving way to habit as he sings with her, voice strong but soft.
that's how tsukasa probably finds them, really. if he hasn't been found by their parents first.]
[ he, unfortunately, has been; wrapped up in talking to them, welcoming them home, hesitating at... at their questioning of why he has three teas on his tray. if he has a friend or two over, and why he didn't ask them first, and if it was really okay to have them over when such important matters were being discussed—
he bows his head and apologizes, stepping away. he'll fetch them right now; they're with baba, who was also going to be a recipient of this tea, so...
tsukasa knocks gently before he enters, smiling slightly at the song, at their voices mingling so wonderfully together... he shuts the door part ways behind him like before, setting the tray down at her bedside. ]
Sorry to interrupt. [ his voice is quiet, heavy. ] Baba, here's your tea. You too, Leonii. But...
[ he hesitates, chewing his bottom lip, and leans closer to leo. in english, now: ] Mom and Dad are back. They want to see what friend I brought over without their permission.
[... mm. speak of the devil and he shall appear, or so he's heard, and leo reluctantly peels away from baba to help her sit up more, present her her tea, and take his own.
also in english, very much pretending to be a lot more calm than he's actually feeling:] Good. Been waitin' to talk to them anyway.
[like. he says that. but his tea is shaking just a bit, which he sips at to disguise the fact.]
You wanna stay here? Or do you wanna come with me? It's probably gonna get loud, so...
[ baba sips her tea, giving them both a curious look, and tsukasa glances at her before he closes his eyes.
he wants to be there for leo, but he'd like to be here for baba, to make sure she isn't upset or agitated by the....... discussion there's sure to be... he's obviously torn, squeezing his cup tightly, before he slowly shakes his head and sets it back down. ]
I'll come with you. I'm niisan's ally, after all. [ he reaches for leo's hand, hesitates, and grips the hem of his shirt instead, like a child. ] If it gets too much, I'll come back to make sure Baba's not wound up or anything, but I want to be there for you, Leonii. I wish I'd been able to be back before you left.
[ but he was a stupid, stupid child, who didn't understand anything at all, so... ]
[... mm. tsukasa's older now, and even if he's not an adult in age nor maturity-- well, he's just past the age leo was when he up and left for japan, when he began really make his own decisions and pay for their consequences. leo can't protect tsukasa from everything, can't guide him properly or be the best big brother for him, but
but he nods and downs the rest of his tea carelessly, setting the empty cup aside and ignoring the burn of his tongue, his throat, as he turns back to their grandma and puts his hands around hers, a little more resolute when he speaks this time.]
Mom and Dad are back. I'm gonna talk to them. [... a small squeeze; he's scared, he's scared, he doesn't want to, but.] It isn't gonna go well, but it'll be okay. It's worse if I don't show my face to them.
[probably. leo reluctantly lets baba's hands go, moving to stand and take tsukasa's. it's okay, it's okay. this, too, is a part of growing up, and he's no longer the child they'd fought with before. whether they like it or not, he's seen the world and he's experienced all kinds of things; he's grown up, even if they wouldn't agree with baba's assessment of how well that'd gone.]
[ good luck, dear, baba replies, voice tinged with the hope that it will go well, that things will work out anyway, even despite how things are... stay optimistic.
tsukasa turns his face away, when leo takes his hands, when baba sips her tea and sets it in her lap. ah, it's terrifying, now. he'll have leo, of course, but their parents are already stressed and upset about the state of baba, and then obon's freshly done, but there's still more things to do, and...
he leads his older brother out of the room, shutting the door behind them. his tea's going to grow cold in there, but it's fine. he takes a deep breath, glancing at leo. ]
[he's not. he wouldn't ever be ready, not a day in his life; if he could've gone the rest of his life without seeing them again he would've, stomach twisting itself into knots, but. unfortunately. this is how it is, and he has to accept that.
the grin he gives tsukasa seems unburdened, but there's an underlying nervousness regardless.]
Yeah, of course. C'mon, the longer we make 'em wait the madder they'll be.
[leo knows this as fact, and though his feet feel heavier than anything in the world he starts them along, the halls familiar and yet so, so alien to him now. as if he doesn't belong.]
[ that's true, and tsukasa leans against him as they walk; he counts their steps, familiar with how long it takes to get to the front room, and pauses again at the door. exhales softly, shaking slightly, as he slides open the door.
the little talk that had populated the room stops immediately at the sight of leo, and tsukasa shrinks against him slightly. ]
...Leonii was around and wanted to pay his respects to Baba before she passed, [ he mumbles, not even sure if they heard him; they're more focused on his older brother, and as always, their expressions are a little hard to read.
instead of replying to tsukasa, their mother simply asks leo what he's doing here— it isn't like they didn't hear, but it's like, they want to hear him say it, sort of feeling. ]
[the sight of them is enough to throw every bit of courage out the window, his knots knotting, but tsukasa's presence, his hand and weight, anchors him down. he lifts his head a bit, slouching in a way he knows always tended to anger them, and shrugs.]
Like Tsuka said. I was around and wanted to see Baba again. I'm allowed to do that much, aren't I?
[ he isn't a child of their family anymore, so she isn't his baba any longer.
that's their father, and tsukasa squeezes leo's hand. ]
H-He's still— [ don't speak unless spoken to, tsukasa, their mother reminds him, and tsukasa's mouth shuts immediately.
she continues, once that's passed, with the question of just how long he's been in the city? (the implied question to tsukasa is, how long have you known about him being here, how long have you been sneaking off to spend time with him, and things like that. questions that have answers they aren't going to like, that tighten tsukasa's throat up too much.) ]
If I'm not your kid, then does it matter how long I've been here? Tsuka's only known for-- for a couple of weeks, since Tanabata.
[a bold faced lie to their parents. better for tsukasa, better for him.]
Anyway, names the same or not, I'm still her blood. She welcomed me and we sang together, just like we used to. I was gonna take my leave after that, but... [he hesitates, then steps forward a bit.] But I wanted to check on you, too.
[talk to them, really, as swimmingly as that's going. optimistic, optimistic, they had to have missed him... he was their firstborn.]
[ tsukasa knows his feelings show on his face, so he keeps his head down when leo starts talking— good enough to hide the surprise at the cover up, even if it's going to be worse if they do find out the truth... but then it'd be leo's fault still, he guesses, for lying, since tsukasa is "speak when spoken too"'d right now...
their parents at least give pause on that, father with his lips pressed together, mother with a slightly more sympathetic look that she shakes away. they've been Perfectly Fine. tsukasa has turned out to be a wonderful young man without leo's influence on him, who's excelled in both studies and life. and... she pauses, playing slightly with her sleeve (an unfortunate tell tsukasa'd inherited from her), she asks him. how he's been doing.
[leo glances away, rubbing his neck (where rosetis's tattoo is, a reminder of his past and present), and shrugs. of course tsukasa's excelled without him, he knew that.]
Fine. Have a job. I sing with someone on the side, and my boyfriend's the most wonderful person in the world. [hhhh] I might not've grown up to be a wonderful young man but I've grown up happier out there than I did in here, being able to do what I want.
[... learning from his own mistakes and the like...]
she says it in a way that tsukasa grimaces at, knowing the reaction isn't going to be anything good. it's something he keeps in mind when he talks about any one of his friends to them, to curb any not-so-friend-like feelings that might leak through, that... they're not particularly open to the idea.
she's glad he's happy, she continues a little stiffly, even if it meant abandoning people who cared for him, who loved him, who thought the world of him. she supposes him dating men is acceptable too, she continues a little more stiffly, seeing as he doesn't have a family to having grandchildren for. she can't imagine he would have raised them well, anyway—once things got too hard for him, he would've just left, too. once things weren't going his way, with his boyfriend, he would've just run off again. she tucks her hair behind her ear as she talks, staring down at him despite the fact they're nearly the same height. ]
[leo bristles the more she talks, the hand gripping tsukasa's tightening, and he slouches down a little more, expression moody over angry. he's been feeling fifteen a lot this year, especially now. don't snap, don't snap, don't snap.]
It wasn't hard being your puppet, Mom. I just wasn't happy doing it. I wanted more than just toiling at the shrine, doing extra work you'd criticized if I got anything less than what you wanted in school, and if I was that age I'd do it all again. I don't regret it one bit.
[how it went more, but actually leaving? no, no he can't regret that, then he'd be wrong.]
I'm not without a name though. Tsukinaga's the one I took, and if I've gotta adopt kids then I will... though I'm not looking to any time soon. I'm not eager to fuck up some kid's life like you guys are.
[ how ungrateful. they loved him, took care of him, raised him properly—or tried to, before he fell in with those hooligans—, gave him a home, didn't kick him out months before he actually left like they should have, for tarnishing the suzakura name in front of their peers, in front of his peers—
tsukasa is happy, she continues after taking a breath to calm down. he does everything properly, and he's happy. isn't he, she states more than asks when she looks at him, and tsukasa keeps his eyes to the ground. ]
...Yes, Mother, I'm happy. [ it isn't untrue, because he does have things to be happy about, but it's what he's told leo before, things are good enough... it's good enough. he hesitates, glancing up, and shuffles on his feet. ] But I think... I think you're being a little too harsh on Leonii. Um, Baba did the same thing, didn't she...? And she turned out just fine, so I think you should have a little more faith in Leonii, too...
[ when he can prove he's a truly responsible young man, they will, his father replies, and tsukasa frowns slightly— he should stop while he's ahead, maybe, but— ]
He came home to talk to you two while he was in the city, didn't he? He didn't have to. I think that's responsible of him—
Ha, yeah, that's enough. Like I thought you guys haven't learned a~t all what you did wrong, huh? And here I thought you might've, since you let Tsuka do more than you let me at his age.
[which. he's a little jealous of, but it's probably so tsukasa wouldn't be tempted the way leo'd been. let it be enough, with the fear of disappointment and losing home, and anyone'll be complacent. it's what rosetis does on a grander scale, though the comparison makes him feel a little sick.]
Forget it, Tsuka, It was a waste of time coming here for anything but Baba. Whatever I'd do wouldn't be enough for you anyway and you know it.
[leo knows he's running again, knows he's being childish, but they're not open to listen, he can tell. what's the point, then.]
[ what would be enough for them would be a proper apology. a pause, and then: from the both of them. leo for how his actions have reflected on him and them both here and in japan, and from tsukasa for speaking out of turn.
tsukasa shuts his mouth, shoulders hunched. leo's probably right, that they're not going to listen, but... but...... ]
...Will you two please hear him out, at least a little...? [ softly, looking down, free hand twisting the hem of his shirt. ] And Leonii, can you calm down a little...? I... I want us to talk this out like adults. Um—
[ he pauses, glances over his shoulder. ]
If it'd be easier, I can go back to Baba.
[ their parents keep their eyes on leo, but mom gives a small nod; tsukasa leans on leo briefly—he's sorry, he's sorry, but he feels like he's doing more harm than good being out here, he's so, so, so sorry, niisan, for making this harder, for ruining this—and slides his hand away.
he gives them a bow and leaves, though he just slides the door shut and sits down in the hallway, hands pressed to his face.
mom watches the door, then turns back to leo and gives him a "go on" gesture. they'll listen to whatever he has to say, and if he has any ideas for reparations—if he wants to be part of tsukasa's life again, if he wants to be part of baba's before she passes, without all of this sneaking around—they're willing to listen. ]
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baba's favorite, like old times. for her part, the old woman pulls him close immediately, pressing her face into his hair with a sigh—and then come the questions, spirited despite her obvious fatigue. her first grandson has returned to her after all; she can spare a bit of life, a bit of energy, for this, for finding out just how he's been. it's much better to hear it in person, right beside her, honestly, and she strokes her fingers through his hair comfortingly as she divulges how things have been at home too, whatever tsukasa hasn't told him... primarily about her daughter and the man she married, their parents.
(tsukasa does his best not to bring mom and dad into the equation with leo, unless he's specifically asked about them, after all.) ]
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how he was now, the sort of work he likes and the people he knows, the music he plays and loves... leo still remembers how she taught him to tell stories best, and how they charm people even now, draw others close and give them daydreams. he misses it, honestly, but... he doesn't know if he's allowed back, if he could even consider it, given how he'd left.
(leo apologies for that too, voice growing quieter, for running away and all. how he'd been a coward, unable to be the older brother tsukasa needed and the son they'd wanted. he's been trying to be at least one of those now.)]
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his parents miss him too, even if they don't say so, even if they don't show it. she's sure they have to—he's their firstborn, after all. the one they loved enough to bring into this world, to take care of, to worry over and get mad at. she shifts topics though, just to ask him more about these people who's captured his heart so—and at some point during sena's, mention that she's met him before, when tsukasa brought him over last month. a respectful boy, very easy on the eyes. her darling grandson has good taste as ever. ]
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of course he has taste. ♪ he doesn't mind showing pictures of the others, dates with nazu (and some of nazu's Large Family -- he's the eldest son among all these siblings, he takes care of them all and leo helps), older pictures of miai back in japan... they're all lookers.
and, like. light haired. miai was blond back then, even if he'd had dark hair when they reunited. there's some pictures of that too, with leo having more piercings than the japan-based ones. leo would've invited both of them over to meet her if things weren't what they were, but he's glad she got to meet sena at least. he's a good guy, even if he takes some time to warm up to others ♥]
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she laughs again, closing her eyes, then quietly asks leo to look after him, now that he's home. to talk to their parents, too... at least try. she'd like things to be at peace again... she'd like to see his photos on the wall again. that's a little selfish to request, she knows, but it's an old woman's sentimental last wish. ]
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mm.
the part he knew'd come up, and he's quiet as he buries his face more into her. baba... probably won't be alive to see if they ever are put up again, but every year she'd come to visit for a night, then leave relieved to know things were good. if they ever would.
okay, he finally says. i'll try, baba. i can try.
because he can't make promises he can't keep anymore, but he can say he'll try. he'd been meaning to talk to them today anyway. while he was around.]
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after a long moment, she starts to sing; it's a song they used to sing together, an old love song she used to dance to, voice sweet but weaker than it used to be when he was younger. age hasn't taken her spirit, her love of this art and many others, but it has hampered it, somewhat. ]
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that's how tsukasa probably finds them, really. if he hasn't been found by their parents first.]
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he bows his head and apologizes, stepping away. he'll fetch them right now; they're with baba, who was also going to be a recipient of this tea, so...
tsukasa knocks gently before he enters, smiling slightly at the song, at their voices mingling so wonderfully together... he shuts the door part ways behind him like before, setting the tray down at her bedside. ]
Sorry to interrupt. [ his voice is quiet, heavy. ] Baba, here's your tea. You too, Leonii. But...
[ he hesitates, chewing his bottom lip, and leans closer to leo. in english, now: ] Mom and Dad are back. They want to see what friend I brought over without their permission.
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also in english, very much pretending to be a lot more calm than he's actually feeling:] Good. Been waitin' to talk to them anyway.
[like. he says that. but his tea is shaking just a bit, which he sips at to disguise the fact.]
You wanna stay here? Or do you wanna come with me? It's probably gonna get loud, so...
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he wants to be there for leo, but he'd like to be here for baba, to make sure she isn't upset or agitated by the....... discussion there's sure to be... he's obviously torn, squeezing his cup tightly, before he slowly shakes his head and sets it back down. ]
I'll come with you. I'm niisan's ally, after all. [ he reaches for leo's hand, hesitates, and grips the hem of his shirt instead, like a child. ] If it gets too much, I'll come back to make sure Baba's not wound up or anything, but I want to be there for you, Leonii. I wish I'd been able to be back before you left.
[ but he was a stupid, stupid child, who didn't understand anything at all, so... ]
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but he nods and downs the rest of his tea carelessly, setting the empty cup aside and ignoring the burn of his tongue, his throat, as he turns back to their grandma and puts his hands around hers, a little more resolute when he speaks this time.]
Mom and Dad are back. I'm gonna talk to them. [... a small squeeze; he's scared, he's scared, he doesn't want to, but.] It isn't gonna go well, but it'll be okay. It's worse if I don't show my face to them.
[probably. leo reluctantly lets baba's hands go, moving to stand and take tsukasa's. it's okay, it's okay. this, too, is a part of growing up, and he's no longer the child they'd fought with before. whether they like it or not, he's seen the world and he's experienced all kinds of things; he's grown up, even if they wouldn't agree with baba's assessment of how well that'd gone.]
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tsukasa turns his face away, when leo takes his hands, when baba sips her tea and sets it in her lap. ah, it's terrifying, now. he'll have leo, of course, but their parents are already stressed and upset about the state of baba, and then obon's freshly done, but there's still more things to do, and...
he leads his older brother out of the room, shutting the door behind them. his tea's going to grow cold in there, but it's fine. he takes a deep breath, glancing at leo. ]
...Are you ready, Leonii?
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the grin he gives tsukasa seems unburdened, but there's an underlying nervousness regardless.]
Yeah, of course. C'mon, the longer we make 'em wait the madder they'll be.
[leo knows this as fact, and though his feet feel heavier than anything in the world he starts them along, the halls familiar and yet so, so alien to him now. as if he doesn't belong.]
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the little talk that had populated the room stops immediately at the sight of leo, and tsukasa shrinks against him slightly. ]
...Leonii was around and wanted to pay his respects to Baba before she passed, [ he mumbles, not even sure if they heard him; they're more focused on his older brother, and as always, their expressions are a little hard to read.
instead of replying to tsukasa, their mother simply asks leo what he's doing here— it isn't like they didn't hear, but it's like, they want to hear him say it, sort of feeling. ]
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Like Tsuka said. I was around and wanted to see Baba again. I'm allowed to do that much, aren't I?
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that's their father, and tsukasa squeezes leo's hand. ]
H-He's still— [ don't speak unless spoken to, tsukasa, their mother reminds him, and tsukasa's mouth shuts immediately.
she continues, once that's passed, with the question of just how long he's been in the city? (the implied question to tsukasa is, how long have you known about him being here, how long have you been sneaking off to spend time with him, and things like that. questions that have answers they aren't going to like, that tighten tsukasa's throat up too much.) ]
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[a bold faced lie to their parents. better for tsukasa, better for him.]
Anyway, names the same or not, I'm still her blood. She welcomed me and we sang together, just like we used to. I was gonna take my leave after that, but... [he hesitates, then steps forward a bit.] But I wanted to check on you, too.
[talk to them, really, as swimmingly as that's going. optimistic, optimistic, they had to have missed him... he was their firstborn.]
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their parents at least give pause on that, father with his lips pressed together, mother with a slightly more sympathetic look that she shakes away. they've been Perfectly Fine. tsukasa has turned out to be a wonderful young man without leo's influence on him, who's excelled in both studies and life. and... she pauses, playing slightly with her sleeve (an unfortunate tell tsukasa'd inherited from her), she asks him. how he's been doing.
(as it's only polite to do so.) ]
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Fine. Have a job. I sing with someone on the side, and my boyfriend's the most wonderful person in the world. [hhhh] I might not've grown up to be a wonderful young man but I've grown up happier out there than I did in here, being able to do what I want.
[... learning from his own mistakes and the like...]
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she says it in a way that tsukasa grimaces at, knowing the reaction isn't going to be anything good. it's something he keeps in mind when he talks about any one of his friends to them, to curb any not-so-friend-like feelings that might leak through, that... they're not particularly open to the idea.
she's glad he's happy, she continues a little stiffly, even if it meant abandoning people who cared for him, who loved him, who thought the world of him. she supposes him dating men is acceptable too, she continues a little more stiffly, seeing as he doesn't have a family to having grandchildren for. she can't imagine he would have raised them well, anyway—once things got too hard for him, he would've just left, too. once things weren't going his way, with his boyfriend, he would've just run off again. she tucks her hair behind her ear as she talks, staring down at him despite the fact they're nearly the same height. ]
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It wasn't hard being your puppet, Mom. I just wasn't happy doing it. I wanted more than just toiling at the shrine, doing extra work you'd criticized if I got anything less than what you wanted in school, and if I was that age I'd do it all again. I don't regret it one bit.
[how it went more, but actually leaving? no, no he can't regret that, then he'd be wrong.]
I'm not without a name though. Tsukinaga's the one I took, and if I've gotta adopt kids then I will... though I'm not looking to any time soon. I'm not eager to fuck up some kid's life like you guys are.
[well, he tried.]
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tsukasa is happy, she continues after taking a breath to calm down. he does everything properly, and he's happy. isn't he, she states more than asks when she looks at him, and tsukasa keeps his eyes to the ground. ]
...Yes, Mother, I'm happy. [ it isn't untrue, because he does have things to be happy about, but it's what he's told leo before, things are good enough... it's good enough. he hesitates, glancing up, and shuffles on his feet. ] But I think... I think you're being a little too harsh on Leonii. Um, Baba did the same thing, didn't she...? And she turned out just fine, so I think you should have a little more faith in Leonii, too...
[ when he can prove he's a truly responsible young man, they will, his father replies, and tsukasa frowns slightly— he should stop while he's ahead, maybe, but— ]
He came home to talk to you two while he was in the city, didn't he? He didn't have to. I think that's responsible of him—
[ that's enough, tsukasa. ]
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[which. he's a little jealous of, but it's probably so tsukasa wouldn't be tempted the way leo'd been. let it be enough, with the fear of disappointment and losing home, and anyone'll be complacent. it's what rosetis does on a grander scale, though the comparison makes him feel a little sick.]
Forget it, Tsuka, It was a waste of time coming here for anything but Baba. Whatever I'd do wouldn't be enough for you anyway and you know it.
[leo knows he's running again, knows he's being childish, but they're not open to listen, he can tell. what's the point, then.]
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[ what would be enough for them would be a proper apology. a pause, and then: from the both of them. leo for how his actions have reflected on him and them both here and in japan, and from tsukasa for speaking out of turn.
tsukasa shuts his mouth, shoulders hunched. leo's probably right, that they're not going to listen, but... but...... ]
...Will you two please hear him out, at least a little...? [ softly, looking down, free hand twisting the hem of his shirt. ] And Leonii, can you calm down a little...? I... I want us to talk this out like adults. Um—
[ he pauses, glances over his shoulder. ]
If it'd be easier, I can go back to Baba.
[ their parents keep their eyes on leo, but mom gives a small nod; tsukasa leans on leo briefly—he's sorry, he's sorry, but he feels like he's doing more harm than good being out here, he's so, so, so sorry, niisan, for making this harder, for ruining this—and slides his hand away.
he gives them a bow and leaves, though he just slides the door shut and sits down in the hallway, hands pressed to his face.
mom watches the door, then turns back to leo and gives him a "go on" gesture. they'll listen to whatever he has to say, and if he has any ideas for reparations—if he wants to be part of tsukasa's life again, if he wants to be part of baba's before she passes, without all of this sneaking around—they're willing to listen. ]
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