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[ from here
whatever retort he had about his sweet tooth melts away with the second sentiment, and tsukasa closes his eyes and tightens his grip. ]
「Did you turn psychic while you were in Japan, or am I that easy to read...?」[ it's something he's thinking, yes. it's something he's worried about. tsukasa wiggles himself free, but just so he can flop down beside leo and lay an arm over his eyes. kuahhhh. ]「I want to show you how much I've grown up, too... but I don't feel like I'm doing a good job of that right now. Mm, I think I'm forgiven just for tonight though, right?」
[ it's been so long. he can be twelve and tugging at his brother's shirt again for one night, at least, can't he? ]
「I'm happy you're home.」[ sighed softly, sadly. ]「I'm really happy, Leonii... I was just thinking, like, a few months ago that you'd never come back. You left for a reason, after all?And you were really happy there, so I was happy for you, but...」
[ ...but he wanted him back. like a selfish, stupid child, he wanted leo back. ]
「Emails and cards and things like that were nice, but they weren't Leonii. This—」[ punctuated with a poke to his shoulder ]「is Leonii, and... I want to catch up more. Um, there's a lot to talk about with regards to Retrospec and all of that too, honestly...? But I don't care right now.」
[ he does care, actually, but it's for murky reasons he doesn't want to think about at all. ]
「So, well... While you're here, let's do our best to make up for lost time...?」
whatever retort he had about his sweet tooth melts away with the second sentiment, and tsukasa closes his eyes and tightens his grip. ]
「Did you turn psychic while you were in Japan, or am I that easy to read...?」[ it's something he's thinking, yes. it's something he's worried about. tsukasa wiggles himself free, but just so he can flop down beside leo and lay an arm over his eyes. kuahhhh. ]「I want to show you how much I've grown up, too... but I don't feel like I'm doing a good job of that right now. Mm, I think I'm forgiven just for tonight though, right?」
[ it's been so long. he can be twelve and tugging at his brother's shirt again for one night, at least, can't he? ]
「I'm happy you're home.」[ sighed softly, sadly. ]「I'm really happy, Leonii... I was just thinking, like, a few months ago that you'd never come back. You left for a reason, after all?And you were really happy there, so I was happy for you, but...」
[ ...but he wanted him back. like a selfish, stupid child, he wanted leo back. ]
「Emails and cards and things like that were nice, but they weren't Leonii. This—」[ punctuated with a poke to his shoulder ]「is Leonii, and... I want to catch up more. Um, there's a lot to talk about with regards to Retrospec and all of that too, honestly...? But I don't care right now.」
[ he does care, actually, but it's for murky reasons he doesn't want to think about at all. ]
「So, well... While you're here, let's do our best to make up for lost time...?」
[from here]
i'd like to see yours too!
even if i don't have a hand for it, i have a pretty good eye for stuff like that!
especially watercolors ♪ our baba (grandma) taught us a lot
i always liked singing with her more though...
i love tsuka-tan most in the whole wide world!!!!!!!!!!
there is not a single person who is loves him more!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am his biggest fan!!!!!!!!!!!!
if you two weren't friendly already i'd pitch him to you!!!!!!!!!!!
that aside, why don't you become the first brother of the tsukinaga clan~?
i'll take good care of you~♪
i'd like to see yours too!
even if i don't have a hand for it, i have a pretty good eye for stuff like that!
especially watercolors ♪ our baba (grandma) taught us a lot
i always liked singing with her more though...
i love tsuka-tan most in the whole wide world!!!!!!!!!!
there is not a single person who is loves him more!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am his biggest fan!!!!!!!!!!!!
if you two weren't friendly already i'd pitch him to you!!!!!!!!!!!
that aside, why don't you become the first brother of the tsukinaga clan~?
i'll take good care of you~♪
[leo's a good listener. it's something he grew into, and he's quiet as tsukasa talks and talks and talks, says the things he feels himself, and guilty settles uneasily on him at the lies that pile up. how he's been here for more than a week, how his happiness was ultimately short lived in japan.
at the end he's turning to tsukasa and petting his head, laughing a bit.]
「You're forgiven, you're forgiven! I want to see the grown up Tsuka, but most of all I just want to see my little brother Tsuka, you know? Even if you're childish, even if you're selfish, I want to see all of that. It's your right.
So we can make up for lost time. There's plenty of it; I'm not leaving again, I promise!」 [it's a stupid promise to make.] 「Tell me what's been going on with you. Any fun adventures? Even if we're not caring about that Retrothing right now, I get that it's pretty big and it's probably troubled you a lot.」
[leo pulls tsukasa to face him, kissing his forehead and hugging him again, tight as ever.]
「Tell me~. I'll give 'em a real scare if they've hurt my little brother~.」
at the end he's turning to tsukasa and petting his head, laughing a bit.]
「You're forgiven, you're forgiven! I want to see the grown up Tsuka, but most of all I just want to see my little brother Tsuka, you know? Even if you're childish, even if you're selfish, I want to see all of that. It's your right.
So we can make up for lost time. There's plenty of it; I'm not leaving again, I promise!」 [it's a stupid promise to make.] 「Tell me what's been going on with you. Any fun adventures? Even if we're not caring about that Retrothing right now, I get that it's pretty big and it's probably troubled you a lot.」
[leo pulls tsukasa to face him, kissing his forehead and hugging him again, tight as ever.]
「Tell me~. I'll give 'em a real scare if they've hurt my little brother~.」
Really? You should stop by Palettes sometime!
It's the art store in Tisse that my family owns! I'm putting some of my paintings up there!
Or you could crash the art club one day and surprise Tsukasa, since I'm sure no one would mind, and I bet he'd be happy to see you
Also, music is a type of art too!! I'm not very good at it, but singing is a lot of fun
Ahhhh, that's so cute! I'm sure he knows that you love him lots and lots!!!!!
He's a good guy! A really, really good guy!!!
...
Wait, huh?! You don't really mean that, do you?
I've never had a brother before, but I've always wanted one!
It's the art store in Tisse that my family owns! I'm putting some of my paintings up there!
Or you could crash the art club one day and surprise Tsukasa, since I'm sure no one would mind, and I bet he'd be happy to see you
Also, music is a type of art too!! I'm not very good at it, but singing is a lot of fun
Ahhhh, that's so cute! I'm sure he knows that you love him lots and lots!!!!!
He's a good guy! A really, really good guy!!!
...
Wait, huh?! You don't really mean that, do you?
I've never had a brother before, but I've always wanted one!
i look just like a high schooler still, so i'm planning on dropping in anyway ♪
i'll definitely definitely do it now that i've got an invitation though!!!!
and you get it!!!!! you have an artist's soul, truly!!!!!!!!
i have to hear you sing now!!!! i can't let that go by without scrutiny, you know~?
yeah i do!! you seem a good kid and if you're friendly with tsuka-tan then all the better
you're
[hold on let him check your name]
izumi tsukinaga okay
even if it's unofficial, that's part of your life from now on ♪
[#CURSEDNAME]
i'll definitely definitely do it now that i've got an invitation though!!!!
and you get it!!!!! you have an artist's soul, truly!!!!!!!!
i have to hear you sing now!!!! i can't let that go by without scrutiny, you know~?
yeah i do!! you seem a good kid and if you're friendly with tsuka-tan then all the better
you're
[hold on let him check your name]
izumi tsukinaga okay
even if it's unofficial, that's part of your life from now on ♪
[#CURSEDNAME]
[ any fun adventures... retrospec... tsukasa scoots closer and curls up to him, arms between them, and hums. a promise not to leave, what he's been up to. ]
「They haven't hurt me, don't worry... But the other month I was in Respartum? It's really hot there, with a lot of fire and brimstone and all of that. Sena-senpai called it Hell.」
[ which is not inaccurate. ]
「I met a lot of nice people though, and made a lot of friends, and got closer to a couple of others too, so I thought it was a good experience? Mmm, falling off a ladder aside...」
「They haven't hurt me, don't worry... But the other month I was in Respartum? It's really hot there, with a lot of fire and brimstone and all of that. Sena-senpai called it Hell.」
[ which is not inaccurate. ]
「I met a lot of nice people though, and made a lot of friends, and got closer to a couple of others too, so I thought it was a good experience? Mmm, falling off a ladder aside...」
[....... bullriding............... he remembers that, that was in a super hot place, kuro was there and it was great...........]
「A boy has to get his scratches every now and then! What's a ladder doing in Hell? Are the demons trying to climb out or something?」
[leo it
isn't actually hell, probably.]
「A boy has to get his scratches every now and then! What's a ladder doing in Hell? Are the demons trying to climb out or something?」
[leo it
isn't actually hell, probably.]
「No, it was rumored to be an infinite ladder—once you stepped on, you couldn't step off, though if you figured out how to do that then you'd become like a god... Obviously, that wasn't true. We landed in a literal ghost town beneath the city—it was really creepy? Xiaolang said he felt spirits and things like that...」
[ brr. he shivers just thinking about it. ]
「I didn't break anything, don't worry. Just had a lot of bruises... and a split lip... and things like that, from getting kicked in the face and fallen on... I was the first one down the ladder since Ayano buttered me up to it. I don't regret it, since it worked out really well, and she was really sweet about it...~? But still.」[ ah, right. ]「Xiaolang's a middle schooler who was in my group, and Ayano's a senior at the high school I met at a winter festival in December... She was really cute then, too. We watched fireworks together for a little while.」
[ brr. he shivers just thinking about it. ]
「I didn't break anything, don't worry. Just had a lot of bruises... and a split lip... and things like that, from getting kicked in the face and fallen on... I was the first one down the ladder since Ayano buttered me up to it. I don't regret it, since it worked out really well, and she was really sweet about it...~? But still.」[ ah, right. ]「Xiaolang's a middle schooler who was in my group, and Ayano's a senior at the high school I met at a winter festival in December... She was really cute then, too. We watched fireworks together for a little while.」
「Aww, is my little Tsuka getting crushes already~? C'mere, c'mere, tell me allll about this Ayano girl~.」
[and he's absolutely dragging tsukasa closer, ruffling his hair. that all sounds really... worrying, dangerous, fun; leo is partially glad to hear about his little brother getting out so much, but he also doesn't like it one bit. their... his parents would have an aneurysm. so that's great.]
[and he's absolutely dragging tsukasa closer, ruffling his hair. that all sounds really... worrying, dangerous, fun; leo is partially glad to hear about his little brother getting out so much, but he also doesn't like it one bit. their... his parents would have an aneurysm. so that's great.]
「I-It's not like that! Ayano's, um... I mean, I like Ayano, she's very nice, but, I—」
[ it's not like that, it really isn't, but he's flustered anyway and he buries his face into his hands. ]
「It would be easier though,」[ he continues after a moment, voice slightly muffled by the hands over his mouth, ]「if she was who I was crushing on. She's sweet and she wants to look out for me... Not that the person I like doesn't, but—...」
[ tsukasa trails off, eyes lidded, and he sighs. anya's still cute; anya's still friendly. anya hasn't changed intrinsically even if everything else has, being off the app, but there's still a weird disconnect and distance now that he gets blank looks about this or that due to it. he'd noticed it with mafuyu, when she dropped off of it, and it wasn't like it was any better, but with her...
he's had the thought that maybe he could confess now, but it isn't right. it wouldn't be right. she probably still doesn't like turning people down, and she definitely would to him. ]
「It's difficult? Let's say that, Leonii. I feel like Ayano's the type of person to be dating someone anyway, she's that cute... Ah, I have a picture, hold on.」[ her contact icon!! in his phone. she's super cute. here leo. ]「And nice and funny and kind of pushy, but not in a bad way. Kind of in a big sis way? Honestly, she kind of reminded me of you when we were kids.」
[ like you're not still one tsukasa lol ]
[ it's not like that, it really isn't, but he's flustered anyway and he buries his face into his hands. ]
「It would be easier though,」[ he continues after a moment, voice slightly muffled by the hands over his mouth, ]「if she was who I was crushing on. She's sweet and she wants to look out for me... Not that the person I like doesn't, but—...」
[ tsukasa trails off, eyes lidded, and he sighs. anya's still cute; anya's still friendly. anya hasn't changed intrinsically even if everything else has, being off the app, but there's still a weird disconnect and distance now that he gets blank looks about this or that due to it. he'd noticed it with mafuyu, when she dropped off of it, and it wasn't like it was any better, but with her...
he's had the thought that maybe he could confess now, but it isn't right. it wouldn't be right. she probably still doesn't like turning people down, and she definitely would to him. ]
「It's difficult? Let's say that, Leonii. I feel like Ayano's the type of person to be dating someone anyway, she's that cute... Ah, I have a picture, hold on.」[ her contact icon!! in his phone. she's super cute. here leo. ]「And nice and funny and kind of pushy, but not in a bad way. Kind of in a big sis way? Honestly, she kind of reminded me of you when we were kids.」
[ like you're not still one tsukasa lol ]
[leo already knows it's not ayano he's crushing on, but he's kind of disappointed tsukasa isn't jumping at the chance to talk about anya? maybe it's just because he doesn't want his big brother to tease him. because he would and he knows this.
he looks at the icon and hums pleasantly, cuddling his brother more.]
「You're still a kid, though~? But I'm glad, I'm glad! She sounds like the kinda girl I'd get along with~. Who is the person you've got it bad for? I can already tell you don't think it'll work out, but tell me anyway!」
[your big brother's got a lot of experience in things that don't work out, after all..♪]
he looks at the icon and hums pleasantly, cuddling his brother more.]
「You're still a kid, though~? But I'm glad, I'm glad! She sounds like the kinda girl I'd get along with~. Who is the person you've got it bad for? I can already tell you don't think it'll work out, but tell me anyway!」
[your big brother's got a lot of experience in things that don't work out, after all..♪]
「So Leonii really did become psychic while he was in Japan~?」
[ ...ahh, mmm. he leans into the cuddle, closing his eyes. the person he likes.. ]
「Her name's Anya—Anastasia Vasilieva. When she was on the app, she had hair like starlight... Her hair's still pretty light now, and she still looks super pretty, and she's still kind and thoughtful... Her accent's gone—um, it's hard to explain, but apparently her past life... or however that works out, she didn't speak English or Japanese very well, since she was Russian, so Retrospec gave that back to her.」[ a beat, and he smiles lightly. ]「She was self-conscious about it, because it was harder to explain herself and find the right words after that, but I didn't mind. She was so cute with it, and admirable, and I offered to help her out with getting better. I wanted to learn Russian so I could make things easier on her, too, but it's actually really hard...」
[ tsukasa quiets down for a moment, finding her in his contacts and staring her her picture. ]
「She and I are really good friends. Just friends, though. She doesn't think of me in that way, and I told her I had a crush on someone else because I panicked when she asked me about some poetry I was writing anyway... Nazuna told me I shouldn't feel guilty about liking her, but I can't help it. She doesn't like turning down people if she doesn't feel the same way—it really hurts her—so I can't confess? I don't know if I could even do it now that she's not on Retrospec... Even if things worked out like that, it'd be weird to date someone who doesn't recognize how weird things get, wouldn't it?」[ ... ]「And things can get really weird, Leonii.」
[ ...ahh, mmm. he leans into the cuddle, closing his eyes. the person he likes.. ]
「Her name's Anya—Anastasia Vasilieva. When she was on the app, she had hair like starlight... Her hair's still pretty light now, and she still looks super pretty, and she's still kind and thoughtful... Her accent's gone—um, it's hard to explain, but apparently her past life... or however that works out, she didn't speak English or Japanese very well, since she was Russian, so Retrospec gave that back to her.」[ a beat, and he smiles lightly. ]「She was self-conscious about it, because it was harder to explain herself and find the right words after that, but I didn't mind. She was so cute with it, and admirable, and I offered to help her out with getting better. I wanted to learn Russian so I could make things easier on her, too, but it's actually really hard...」
[ tsukasa quiets down for a moment, finding her in his contacts and staring her her picture. ]
「She and I are really good friends. Just friends, though. She doesn't think of me in that way, and I told her I had a crush on someone else because I panicked when she asked me about some poetry I was writing anyway... Nazuna told me I shouldn't feel guilty about liking her, but I can't help it. She doesn't like turning down people if she doesn't feel the same way—it really hurts her—so I can't confess? I don't know if I could even do it now that she's not on Retrospec... Even if things worked out like that, it'd be weird to date someone who doesn't recognize how weird things get, wouldn't it?」[ ... ]「And things can get really weird, Leonii.」
「That guy's right, you shouldn't feel guilty about liking someone, even if they don't like you back. They're feelings that bring you happiness, right? You're a good kid as ever though, Tsuka, not wanting to hurt others.」
[there's a lot to address, but he'll start there, resting his chin on tsukasa's head. she is really cute. it's the girl from the live back in december, the one that tsukasa was a backup dancer for, and he recalls her singing easily; pretty, lovely, an idol's voice but with a heart full of love.]
「Mm~. I definitely don't get a lot of the app stuff, but it sounds pretty complicated..? Getting weird things like accents and different colored hair... Almost like we're in some kind of MMO ♪」
[with customization!!!! wow.]
「If it's weird now though, then you definitely shouldn't.」 [how weird was it for nazu and kuro?] 「Ahhh, I've missed my little brother's first love, first heartbreak..! I'm so mad! I wanted to be the one that Tsuka went to for all kinds of advice! I won't forgive Nazu for taking that from me!」
[he shouldn't say nazuna's name so casually like that, but he's comfortable and he's got thoughts on how to explain away if tsukasa asks.]
[there's a lot to address, but he'll start there, resting his chin on tsukasa's head. she is really cute. it's the girl from the live back in december, the one that tsukasa was a backup dancer for, and he recalls her singing easily; pretty, lovely, an idol's voice but with a heart full of love.]
「Mm~. I definitely don't get a lot of the app stuff, but it sounds pretty complicated..? Getting weird things like accents and different colored hair... Almost like we're in some kind of MMO ♪」
[with customization!!!! wow.]
「If it's weird now though, then you definitely shouldn't.」 [how weird was it for nazu and kuro?] 「Ahhh, I've missed my little brother's first love, first heartbreak..! I'm so mad! I wanted to be the one that Tsuka went to for all kinds of advice! I won't forgive Nazu for taking that from me!」
[he shouldn't say nazuna's name so casually like that, but he's comfortable and he's got thoughts on how to explain away if tsukasa asks.]
[ nazu... nazuna? mmm, leonii's always made friends easily; they probably met by chance, and if leo's declaring himself as "tsukinaga"... then, familial familiarity aside, there's no reason for anyone to think they're related. it sounds legitimate to him, so he passes the thought aside and sighs. ]
「One of those things was before even Anya, Leonii~. I'll ask you things now though, promise.」[ nazuna's great and very big brotherly but leonii is leonii!! ]「...Who else have you met since you've been in? Do you have a place to stay? Mmm, you've always been good with people, haven't you..? I remember you having a lot of older friends when you still lived with us...」
「One of those things was before even Anya, Leonii~. I'll ask you things now though, promise.」[ nazuna's great and very big brotherly but leonii is leonii!! ]「...Who else have you met since you've been in? Do you have a place to stay? Mmm, you've always been good with people, haven't you..? I remember you having a lot of older friends when you still lived with us...」
「My own little brother, not telling me about his first love, his first heartbreak! I've been away for so long, could it be that Tsuka hates me?! That he won't even answer a simple question like that?! Ah, I'm struck! Struck」
[and for effect, he's uncurling around tsukasa, laying on his back again with a hand to his heart.]
「My heart's on fire! No, it's frozen cold! If only I knew..♪」
[and for effect, he's uncurling around tsukasa, laying on his back again with a hand to his heart.]
「My heart's on fire! No, it's frozen cold! If only I knew..♪」
[ leonii..................... ]
「It was two whole weeks and really not that important. I wouldn't really say I had my heart broken either...? It just sort of cooled and now things are just how they are.」[ honestly. ]「You're as dramatic as ever, huh...? Mmm, I'm glad I didn't pick that up from you.」
[i'm fucking wheezing ]
「It was two whole weeks and really not that important. I wouldn't really say I had my heart broken either...? It just sort of cooled and now things are just how they are.」[ honestly. ]「You're as dramatic as ever, huh...? Mmm, I'm glad I didn't pick that up from you.」
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[oh, that's all. the sort of thing that leo used to fall in to all the time (as if he doesn't a little now). he clings to his little brother again, petting his hair.]
「I have no idea what you're talking about. ♪ Anyway, I've met a lot of people here! And I reunited with Kuro too, one of the older people I hung with. I'm staying with him for now. ♪」
[not... a lie, so.]
「Oh, and I even managed to nab a job! It's part-time work, but it seems like it'll be fun.」
[also not a lie. but it's not the whole truth. he has had it for a good while now and it hasn't been part-time for about as long.]
「I have no idea what you're talking about. ♪ Anyway, I've met a lot of people here! And I reunited with Kuro too, one of the older people I hung with. I'm staying with him for now. ♪」
[not... a lie, so.]
「Oh, and I even managed to nab a job! It's part-time work, but it seems like it'll be fun.」
[also not a lie. but it's not the whole truth. he has had it for a good while now and it hasn't been part-time for about as long.]
[ ah, kuro ♪ ]
「Ahh, I see. That's good~. And as expected of the great and charismatic Leonii.」[ ...he's going to sit up, leo can come with him but he's tired of laying on the ground. ]「What kind of job is it? Can I come by? Does it let you do music? I really liked your band, and your covers on Youtube are fun... Sukisan ♪」
「Ahh, I see. That's good~. And as expected of the great and charismatic Leonii.」[ ...he's going to sit up, leo can come with him but he's tired of laying on the ground. ]「What kind of job is it? Can I come by? Does it let you do music? I really liked your band, and your covers on Youtube are fun... Sukisan ♪」
[he'll come with, he'll come with ♪]
「Oho? You found me out~? As expected of my clever little brother, who I used to sing to sleep. ♪
It doesn't let me do music, and really I can't sing when I work since it requires a lot of concentration, but I don't see why you can't come around. ♪ I'm working at a tattoo parlor.」
「Oho? You found me out~? As expected of my clever little brother, who I used to sing to sleep. ♪
It doesn't let me do music, and really I can't sing when I work since it requires a lot of concentration, but I don't see why you can't come around. ♪ I'm working at a tattoo parlor.」
[ tattoo........ parlor....... tsukasa's pulling away a bit to stare. his brother, tattoo parlor... ]
「But that requires you to be able to draw, Leonii?」
「But that requires you to be able to draw, Leonii?」
[ ACK he deserves this but please... ]
「I-If you say say, Leonii!」[ he's wiggling please stop... ]
「I-If you say say, Leonii!」[ he's wiggling please stop... ]
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