[hhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh he's so thankful for alexander trapping him now, he feels like he could float right out of existence.]
「Tsuka... Of course you count..♪ You're my favorite, most precious baby brother, you know? There's no way, no way you wouldn't count. There's nothing stupid about it either~. Ah, with all the lessons I've given you, let's sing together at a high school talent show. ♪ I'll join in, I'll join in. ♪」
「How cruel, little brother, I look young enough don't I? ♪ I get it though, I get it, I saw it in the chat before..♪ You've promised yourself completely to Hina-tan after all, I never had a chance!」
[he's absolutely teasing the hell out of him, why wouldn't he.]
「I'd like that, though... Singing with you is one of the things that makes me happiest, Tsuka. Really-- Really happy.」
[he. won't cry again, but his voice waves just a bit there, just a bit.]
[ NO STOP, HE'S THE ONE WHO PUT IT LIKE THAT BUT HE'S STILL GROANING SOFTLY AND PRESSING HIS FACE INTO AJISAI... PLEASE........ ]
「You're the worst, Leonii... Please...」
[ umuuu... but... the wavering, how happy leo is at the thought... it's silly to think he'd been worried that his older brother didn't care about him or love him or miss him, probably, even if the fears were valid. ]
「...The next time you do a cat concert I'll help lead them. Um... How's that?」
[there's a lot more he has to work out himself. about himself, about his relationships with others, but that'll take time; for now he's let a weight off with tsukasa, and he'll keep to their shared promise of change too. he isn't the sort of live recklessly the way he was years ago. he knows he's got time.
he wipes at his face again, already feeling his cheeks heat up and eyes sting, ahh, ahh.]
「Tsuka... I'm sorry again, for hiding all that. I'm really happy right now. I'm... going to try and be more honest in the future too, so that if you have a question you can expect the truth -- and not me just half-assing it, trying to get by. Trying to be the big brother I think you deserve instead of the one you've got right now.」
[which. isn't a great one, but he's tsukasa's nonetheless. leo'll ruffle his hair.]
「I'm glad you'll never really have to deal with stuff like that. ♪ Being a big brother's harder work than anyone in the whole world realizes, you know? ♫ It's why Nazu and I get on so well, because we understand each other.」
[not... that he and nazuna are getting on particularly well right now, but tsukasa doesn't need to worry about that. if it comes up it comes up, but. that's an adult's problem and he's avoiding it. just for now, just for now.]
[ ...leo's so good to him, even if he's bad. tsukasa smiles, his eyes pricking again too, almost in automatic response. ]
「Is that why... Ahaha, I guess so.」[ makes sense tbh, ] 「Ajisai-tan was the youngest of her litter, right? I bet that's why her and I get along too. ♪」
[ RIGHT, LEO... RIGHT....... he kisses his cat's head affectionately, then kisses his big brother's cheek, too. ]
「I always wanted to be an older brother, though, but... It's a lot of work, looking after people.」[ given he sort of, with the gc, ]「I don't envy either of you.」
「Mm, yeah, but it's rewarding in its own way... Having people depend on you is nice, you know? Though you can get the same feeling from animals, which... is kind of why I collected so many of them, I guess. Over time.」
[because he likes to be depended on. without the high expectations bit.]
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「Tsuka... Of course you count..♪ You're my favorite, most precious baby brother, you know? There's no way, no way you wouldn't count. There's nothing stupid about it either~. Ah, with all the lessons I've given you, let's sing together at a high school talent show. ♪ I'll join in, I'll join in. ♪」
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[ if there's a talent show it's gonna be him and his bestie, ]
「We... We can do it some other time, if you really want to.」
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[he's absolutely teasing the hell out of him, why wouldn't he.]
「I'd like that, though... Singing with you is one of the things that makes me happiest, Tsuka. Really-- Really happy.」
[he. won't cry again, but his voice waves just a bit there, just a bit.]
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「You're the worst, Leonii... Please...」
[ umuuu... but... the wavering, how happy leo is at the thought... it's silly to think he'd been worried that his older brother didn't care about him or love him or miss him, probably, even if the fears were valid. ]
「...The next time you do a cat concert I'll help lead them. Um... How's that?」
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[honestly. honestly, honestly. his voice softens, warm and fond.]
「I can't think of anything I'd want more than that.」
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「...Really? Nothing more?」
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[there's a lot more he has to work out himself. about himself, about his relationships with others, but that'll take time; for now he's let a weight off with tsukasa, and he'll keep to their shared promise of change too. he isn't the sort of live recklessly the way he was years ago. he knows he's got time.
he wipes at his face again, already feeling his cheeks heat up and eyes sting, ahh, ahh.]
「Tsuka... I'm sorry again, for hiding all that. I'm really happy right now. I'm... going to try and be more honest in the future too, so that if you have a question you can expect the truth -- and not me just half-assing it, trying to get by. Trying to be the big brother I think you deserve instead of the one you've got right now.」
[which. isn't a great one, but he's tsukasa's nonetheless. leo'll ruffle his hair.]
「I'm glad you'll never really have to deal with stuff like that. ♪ Being a big brother's harder work than anyone in the whole world realizes, you know? ♫ It's why Nazu and I get on so well, because we understand each other.」
[not... that he and nazuna are getting on particularly well right now, but tsukasa doesn't need to worry about that. if it comes up it comes up, but. that's an adult's problem and he's avoiding it. just for now, just for now.]
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「Is that why... Ahaha, I guess so.」[ makes sense tbh, ] 「Ajisai-tan was the youngest of her litter, right? I bet that's why her and I get along too. ♪」
[ RIGHT, LEO... RIGHT....... he kisses his cat's head affectionately, then kisses his big brother's cheek, too. ]
「I always wanted to be an older brother, though, but... It's a lot of work, looking after people.」[ given he sort of, with the gc, ]「I don't envy either of you.」
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[because he likes to be depended on. without the high expectations bit.]