[ god, now this is veering into uncanny valley. it's weird enough that leo's talking to him with his own voice, but having to look at his own face this close and seeing those green eyes reflecting in his clear blue ones... ]
They look...
[ exquisite. polished, like emeralds. since did he become so poetic in describing eye color in his mind anyway? ]
They're not bad, I can admit that much. [ he raises a hand up, brushing leo's hand away from his face before he can feel his face flaring up at the contact. that was close. ] You already wax poetic about my looks on the regular anyway, so hearing that you like your eyes this much is refreshing, really.
[ he turns back to his food, wanting to stuff his cheeks more with the stuff and hoping that that'll hide the redness in his face temporarily. sigh. ]
I prefer that kind of color anyway. [ to have them look at him for a moment longer than this. ]
[fuufuufuu. leo drops his hand and picks at his favorite fruits in the acai bowl, waving a strawberry once he's speared it.]
Right~? There's nothing better than vibrant greens. ♪ Anyway, I thought for sure you'd call me narcissistic for liking my own looks so much, so it's nice to hear that it's refreshing instead~.
[munch munch. mmmm. not all fruits are bad.]
What's so wrong about waxin' poetry about what's beautiful anyway? There's a thousand different poems about fall, you know? It's all loneliness though, mm, apparently that season really resounds with people who're like that... [... oh.] Your birthday's then too, right~? But you don't seem really lonely, Mitzy. There're so many people who've gathered to you.
[even if sena might've been at one point, even if their loneliness is a commonality, to leo... he didn't seem that lonely, not with how he acts in more casual instances with the others. it's nice.]
Yeah, in around three months. Can't believe you'd still remember that.
[ guess who's not excited about it coming up. ]
Fall's not bad, actually. I'd rather have that over fucking summer any day, and... [ not lonely, huh. ] I can't really afford to be lonely with my career; I get to meet all sorts of creative minds and fans of what I do, even some friends who can actually put up with my bullshit...
[ but he takes another bite of pancake, eyes downcast with a wistful smile. he's not comfortable with telling people how lonesome he can be, especially since kazuki had stayed in his lonesome apartment for a day which says a lot... and yet: ]
But sometimes it feels as though you're alone in a crowd, to be honest. [ sighs. ] I wouldn't expect you to get that since we're from wholly different worlds, but all those poems about loneliness in autumn still mean the same thing in the end. It's called "fall" for a reason.
Of course I remember it~. It's a very important day, you know?
[though not just because it's sena's bday, just... in general, because it's a bday. life is always celebrated.
leo stops playing with his food as sena talks though, watching the tells on his own face and knowing what they mean; it's a strange, but not unfamiliar look on that face, and one he feels resound in the cavity of his chest. mm, mm.]
... What do you know, huh? Of course I can understand, Mitzy. Even if we're from different worlds... Or even if you think that, that doesn't mean I haven't felt that before. In Japan, I had a point of time where I was a stray, I didn't belong anywhere and I didn't belong to, or with, anyone.
[it was. mm. difficult. not a time he wants to return to. even before then, too, with his parents not getting it (still not getting it, gods) and tsukasa being too young to understand. but he doesn't want to think about it, so he just eats his fruit.]
Then I fell in with people I felt with my heart and I haven't wanted to go back since. Done my best to that too.
[even if. after returning to recolle, he felt that loneliness again and sort of just. went around to find some kind of comfort. at least he's fine now, he's good now.]
[ well, so long as sena can still get up in the morning, there's no need to hype up that day too much. or maybe he's just too disillusioned by the gesture for the past couple of years, where he hadn't had the time to celebrate it as he'd like. it's why last year was special to him.
he listens to leo this time, realizing his mistake. while sena felt like he can still blend in with the crowd just fine, there are still times where he'd... rather not. mingle for a while. why else would he be so standoffish when asked out on friend dates? ]
And you're doing a good job of it so far. [ no sarcasm, don't worry. ] I... don't feel alone with you, so no use going back now.
[ and it's not just him, mind you. goro's probably waiting for an explanation to their little predicament right now, so sena will go text him right now as an excuse to not look leo in the eyes after admitting that. ]
[... how romantic. in a sense, anyway, with someone not feeling alone around another. it's how he feels around nazuna, how he felt around miai, but it's also how kuro makes him feel. in other words, he's someone important to sena.
hhhhhh his cheeks are warming. to think he could be something like that for someone...]
Mm~. I'd feel bad if you did, you know? Since we're so close in our memories, and we work well together here... I like bein' around you too, Mitzy. I wouldn't mind sittin' in the quiet if you were my company.
[which is. hhhhhh. important, too. that he can sit in silence with someone else. he's so focused on his food.]
[ okay, there. sent a quick message to goro that pretty much said PLEASE HELP HIM AND ME BY EXTENSION BE PATIENT WITH HIM AND DON'T GO ALONG WITH HIS FLIRTATIONS, stashing his phone away and looking up just in time to catch leo's sweet words. that soft, warm feeling of whenever they're like this is back in full force once more, and sena wants to stay in this for a little bit longer --
but no. he's a lot more aware of his own schedule today, so this little "date" will have to be cut short for the time being. he clears his throat. ]
We'll save that for another time. [ yes, next time. preferably in their own respective bodies once more. ] For now, you've got to get to the studio immediately. I already filled Goro in of what happened, so he should be able to teach you the ropes a bit.
[ ah, the kouhai becomes the senpai. sena owes him big time. ]
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They look...
[ exquisite. polished, like emeralds. since did he become so poetic in describing eye color in his mind anyway? ]
They're not bad, I can admit that much. [ he raises a hand up, brushing leo's hand away from his face before he can feel his face flaring up at the contact. that was close. ] You already wax poetic about my looks on the regular anyway, so hearing that you like your eyes this much is refreshing, really.
[ he turns back to his food, wanting to stuff his cheeks more with the stuff and hoping that that'll hide the redness in his face temporarily. sigh. ]
I prefer that kind of color anyway. [ to have them look at him for a moment longer than this. ]
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Right~? There's nothing better than vibrant greens. ♪ Anyway, I thought for sure you'd call me narcissistic for liking my own looks so much, so it's nice to hear that it's refreshing instead~.
[munch munch. mmmm. not all fruits are bad.]
What's so wrong about waxin' poetry about what's beautiful anyway? There's a thousand different poems about fall, you know? It's all loneliness though, mm, apparently that season really resounds with people who're like that... [... oh.] Your birthday's then too, right~? But you don't seem really lonely, Mitzy. There're so many people who've gathered to you.
[even if sena might've been at one point, even if their loneliness is a commonality, to leo... he didn't seem that lonely, not with how he acts in more casual instances with the others. it's nice.]
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[ guess who's not excited about it coming up. ]
Fall's not bad, actually. I'd rather have that over fucking summer any day, and... [ not lonely, huh. ] I can't really afford to be lonely with my career; I get to meet all sorts of creative minds and fans of what I do, even some friends who can actually put up with my bullshit...
[ but he takes another bite of pancake, eyes downcast with a wistful smile. he's not comfortable with telling people how lonesome he can be, especially since kazuki had stayed in his lonesome apartment for a day which says a lot... and yet: ]
But sometimes it feels as though you're alone in a crowd, to be honest. [ sighs. ] I wouldn't expect you to get that since we're from wholly different worlds, but all those poems about loneliness in autumn still mean the same thing in the end. It's called "fall" for a reason.
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[though not just because it's sena's bday, just... in general, because it's a bday. life is always celebrated.
leo stops playing with his food as sena talks though, watching the tells on his own face and knowing what they mean; it's a strange, but not unfamiliar look on that face, and one he feels resound in the cavity of his chest. mm, mm.]
... What do you know, huh? Of course I can understand, Mitzy. Even if we're from different worlds... Or even if you think that, that doesn't mean I haven't felt that before. In Japan, I had a point of time where I was a stray, I didn't belong anywhere and I didn't belong to, or with, anyone.
[it was. mm. difficult. not a time he wants to return to. even before then, too, with his parents not getting it (still not getting it, gods) and tsukasa being too young to understand. but he doesn't want to think about it, so he just eats his fruit.]
Then I fell in with people I felt with my heart and I haven't wanted to go back since. Done my best to that too.
[even if. after returning to recolle, he felt that loneliness again and sort of just. went around to find some kind of comfort. at least he's fine now, he's good now.]
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he listens to leo this time, realizing his mistake. while sena felt like he can still blend in with the crowd just fine, there are still times where he'd... rather not. mingle for a while. why else would he be so standoffish when asked out on friend dates? ]
And you're doing a good job of it so far. [ no sarcasm, don't worry. ] I... don't feel alone with you, so no use going back now.
[ and it's not just him, mind you. goro's probably waiting for an explanation to their little predicament right now, so sena will go text him right now as an excuse to not look leo in the eyes after admitting that. ]
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hhhhhh his cheeks are warming. to think he could be something like that for someone...]
Mm~. I'd feel bad if you did, you know? Since we're so close in our memories, and we work well together here... I like bein' around you too, Mitzy. I wouldn't mind sittin' in the quiet if you were my company.
[which is. hhhhhh. important, too. that he can sit in silence with someone else. he's so focused on his food.]
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but no. he's a lot more aware of his own schedule today, so this little "date" will have to be cut short for the time being. he clears his throat. ]
We'll save that for another time. [ yes, next time. preferably in their own respective bodies once more. ] For now, you've got to get to the studio immediately. I already filled Goro in of what happened, so he should be able to teach you the ropes a bit.
[ ah, the kouhai becomes the senpai. sena owes him big time. ]